had a big clean up today:)

found a lot of things that I never once knew I had. Quite fun. But I realised lots of things that i used to treasure and love cannot be used now:(

Like the collection of cute packet tissues I used to buy. I opened it up and found that the tissue had turned yellow. My mum says if you use it to wipe your mouth you willl get poisoned haha.

Powerpuff girl and hello kitty pens that I used to buy with my pocket money when I was a little girl in primary sch. I remember how i used to save up in my piggy bank and skipped happily to the sch bookshop to buy my beloved pen:) The pens are so pretty that I always couldn't bear to use it, so i kept it nicely in the wrapper. Tested it out yesterday and realised that the ink has long dried up. Had no choice but to throw it away. Haiz.

The My Melody bag and pencil case that I used to treasure a lot now seems pretty childish to me. i decided to pack it up and give it to my young cousins. I realised that I have outgrown a lot of things. I seriously think that my Hello Kitty collection is so huge that I can set up a Pasar malam store to paddle my ware. There's like an alarm clock, nail cutter, shoe polisher, lunch box, watch, colour pencils, rings, earings, bandages, wallets, OMG so much things that are so interesting. Maybe I should have a room to display all these stuff next time or even pass it on to my daughter haha.

I found a lot of old photographs of me, my parents and my bro who was still a baby then. Then I sat down in a corner and began filpping through all the photo albums that my mum painstakingly arranged.

我看到了爸爸和妈妈的结婚照。妈妈那时候是那么的年轻漂亮，而爸爸英俊潇洒。他们看起来真的非常幸福快乐，天生一对。

然后翻到了我满月时的照片，那时我还吃着奶嘴呢！爸妈说我非常爱哭，吵得他们一整晚都不能入眠。妈还说：“照顾你，产后不用到减肥中心都会瘦下来！”

然后又翻到了妈妈第一次带我到动物园去，那时的我是多么的调皮。还记得淘气的我从纪念品店牵着两颗气球跑出店外，害得爸妈不知怎么是好，而我又不肯把气球放下，爸妈无奈只好买下那两颗气球。哈！

翻啊翻啊，翻到了爸妈带我到中国花园提灯笼的照片。爸妈非常疼我，我要什么款式的灯笼，他们都会卖给我。

发现我小时候去过很多地方，动物园，飞禽公园，圣陶沙，虎豹别墅等等。父母一直很想给我一个快乐的童年。到玩具店的时候，我总是抱着心爱的玩具，死死不放，又哭又闹，爸妈看我哭得那么可怜，总是心软，再贵的玩具也都会卖给我。我真的被他们宠坏啦！

翻开生日照片，从一岁到十七岁，我发现蛋糕礼物依在，孩子一年一年地长大，爸妈却一年一年的老去了。妈还笑着说：“孩子！我看和你过生日的日子不多咯！以后有了男友，就不回来庆祝生日了。”

我的童年是阳光灿烂的, 一片温暖, 充满欢乐. 在妈妈的疼爱和爸爸的呵护下, 我就像是个无忧无虑的小公主. 那时候世界对我来说是完美的. 我不知道什么是伤心, 不知道什么是眼泪, 只知道就算天塌下来, 爸妈一定会保护我. 我那时是多么的坚信自己是世界上最幸福的小女孩。

有时我想，是不是我把爸妈给气老了呢？我承认，偶尔会和爸妈顶嘴，害他们伤心、心痛。爸妈总是想尽办法，用他们的一切让我开心，辛辛苦苦把我带大，自幼抱着我，而我却一次又一次的让他们难过。可我真的不是故意的。只是，只是。。。

对不起。

今天翻开相片簿，我发现爸妈真的老了，憔悴了许多。我也长大了，不能再任性了。总有一天，我必须一人展开翅膀飞向未知的未来，离开爸妈的怀抱。爸妈时常说，他们不能永远在我们身旁守护着我们，有一天也会离开世界的，我很难想象没有爸妈的日子会是怎么样，我想我会崩溃，但愿这一天永远不要到来， 永远永远不要到来。

我祈祷上帝保佑我父母，让他们身体健康，天天快乐。

这时，眼角一串冰凉。